Today's The Day!!

So back in Jan I thought I would book a photo shoot for myself.  And to be honest, not just any photo shoot a "boudoir" photo shoot with this company :  http://www.lastfortypercent.com/  This is their main page (they do weddings, families, new babies, ect as well as boudoir photo shoots).

I thought this would scare me enough to lose that weight and rock out these photos.

Then I realized I just can't do this on my own.  I was looking back at my "2013 restart" plan and I weighted 243lbs.  I can tell you that today I weight about 234lbs.  I've lost 10 pounds since right after March break.  I'm getting there but not as "quickly" as I would like.

As I've said before my BP dr wants me to lose weight, more weight, ALOT more weight than I thought I could but I'm going to try it. 

However.. that being said... my photo shoot day is here.  I woke up yesterday with the two biggest pimples EVER on my face. I was hoping they would just go away, but I was wrong.  So my next 2 hopes are that the makeup artist I'm going to is AMAZING and if not that the photographer doesn't mind spending time in Photoshop getting them to look better!

So here I am... laying in bed trying to get myself moving for the day.  I'm worried my pictures will look horrible.  I'm scared that once I actually see myself in front of a camera I will hate it and most of all I'm terrified of what Arnold will think when they come back.

I still haven't decided if I will even show him but still.

I promise I'll post about it once it's done but for now this is how I feel :)

Have a great day!